smile, smile, smile

2009-09-14T19:17:00.001+08:00

I actually got a new livejournal, so that I can start blogging again on a clean slate and away from prying eyes, since hanikamijane is more like my online shopping persona now. But I'm too lazy to get started on the layout and whatnots, so until then, I will live with shitty blogger!

Tonight, I'm gonna shut myself in the hall room and MUG MUG MUG. Wish me luck, friends!

2009-09-11T08:23:00.001+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

I'm super duper tired now but I cannot, cannot go to sleep because if I do I will probably end up missing my lesson. Actually I wonder what's the point of me going, since I'll just be stoning through it anyway. And the annoying tutor still hasn't put up the slides! :(

This week didn't go very well but last night was super fun! It was nice seeing Leqiao again after so long and catching up and of course dear wuyue and jovena were there too! So it was a fun sleepover. (: And I have loads of new movies and all to watch now when I'm ~~supposed to be studying~~ bored in hall.

Okay, time for me to get ready for lessons! Updates again soon!

2009-09-09T23:47:00.003+08:00

I seriously need to stop stealing Yuhan's kitkats, and actually start stocking up on food on my own! And I need to stop procrastinating and start decorating my ugly room, pronto.

School has been a huge bore, just going for lectures, trying to listen, going for tutorials, trying to understand and pretend I did my work, and waiting for things to happen. Hall life is starting to lose its appeal too. I'm missing home like crazy!

Anyway, SMU friends, I'll be there on Friday at around 2pm so please call/text me so we can meet and catch up! :D I'd like to visit the libraries and watch the people SMUg. HAHAHA.

I think I'll be visiting NUS the week after too, so keep it free for me, friends! (:

2009-09-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Furious rage again because this spree I took part in nearly two months ago is still MIA and I am too exhausted to continue hunting the stupid spree-er anymore! RAWR. First time such a thing is happening to me.

I should be studying for my accounting pop quiz tomorrow but information retaining is at an all-time low and I find more joy in MSN-ing people. Someone should invent something to auto-ban the Internet when I ought to be studying.

Anyway, interesting revelation today is that I actually miss home quite a lot! D: I haven't seen my elder sister for one whole week now because Monday-Friday = Hostel ftw, and on the weekends she was staying over at her bf's. WTF. I miss having airconditioning, TV, a bug-free toilet, lizard-free walkways, good home-cooked food and midnight snacks within reach ):

Uni life is draining my soul.

2009-09-04T13:26:00.002+08:00

I am stuck in hall alone without the fan and the lights ): How crappy can things get!? And it has to happen during lunch time when the hall office is not open.

UPSETTING.

2009-09-02T00:19:00.002+08:00

I embarrassed myself three times within the span of 2 hours, and during the first main committee meeting. How shitty can things get!?!

1) During the introductions I suddenly forgot that I was a business manager and introduced myself as a programmer. Then when I realised my mistake I gave this super bimbotic gasp and everyone laughed madly at me.

2) While the president was talking about something super serious I couldn't help it and yawned. And he made some comment about it and everyone laughed AGAIN.

3) We were exchanging numbers when I FORGOT my own number, and gave the wrong one. One minute later I finally realised my mistake.

I can't stand it! Why do I always end up as the resident bimbo everywhere I go?!? ARGHHH.

2009-08-30T13:11:00.000+08:00

Quickie before I leave the house.

Got a new phone, ultimately pleased with it and realised that having more functions on your phone rocks when you can't find a pretty one to satisfy your vainity. Now I just need to find more fun games to install on my phone because bejeweled gets boring after a while. And for the curious, it's the LG Arena! So now both my laptop and phone are from LG. I'm such a loyal customer yo!

So many things I want to do, but I can't seem to find the time/people to do them with me! Please somebody ask me to go do a manicure/shop/ktv-ing/gorge at a buffet/watch a play/sleepover! Life is stale.

OK gotta run now, wednesdays and sundays shall now be my official updating days.

2009-08-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

Nearly everyone's blogging about school, so I figure I'll do that as well.

I can basically sum up everything in three words: I'm very lost.

Really, because uni life still feels very unreal to me and I'm kind of dangling in the middle-ground, trying to get started on my work and stop fooling around so much. If you know me well enough you will know that it is really, really very hard for me to concentrate on just one thing, and this is really irritating because everyone around me is so motivated and hardworking and I am seriously lagging behind. Hopefully the study session with rah tomorrow will be a good start. :/

At least I've accomplished quite a lot in the socialising arena of my life; I had a HTHT with 3 of my tutorial group mates just yesterday, I joined recreational tennis, got into the main committee of an event, been lunching/dinnering with various people, etc. On average, I make one new friend everyday! Awesome or what?

I'm doing all these because uni life has been pretty much lonely so far. We're all like young frogs thrown into a new pond and forced to adapt quickly in order to survive. And we find ourselves hopping around trying to find a place we belong. I'm glad that I am not too weird, not too ugly and not too clever because then I will probably end up alone for the rest of my uni life. Superficial, yes, but that's NBS for you.

2009-08-23T00:56:00.001+08:00

At 12.56am, my sister is doing yoga in her room while I am eating tom yum noodles for supper in mine.

What a tragic difference.

2009-08-19T11:11:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! (:

It's the second week of school now, but I still feel like I'm in the honeymoon period. ): Which is bad, because I need to start doing all my tutorials and readings properly and not end up a slacker/ponner as I was in JC. But anyway I am still relatively motivated by my desire to go on an exchange programme next year, so all should be fine!

Hall life has been blah so far, since I hardly know anyone in my hall. Long story lah, but because I had to transfer hall the only people I know are my roommate, a few OG friends and Liu Ye (from VJC)! Which is why I am supposed to go for this welcome dinner thing tonight to make friends. And my hall room seems to have all these weird bugs flying around. Annoying much.

I feel like I've been on this hectic socialising schedule recently which is exhausting me out, but I find myself continuing to say yes to the various social obligations I have! 'Tis bad. Whatever happened to the Jiayi who says no when she feels like it?!?

Anyway, I've decided to attempt to be sportier in uni and am joining tennis (albeit it being RECREATIONAL tennis) and modern jazz (which I have to audi for so most likely I won't get through).

Oh, and one more thing to motivate me: BANGKOK IN DECEMBER!! <3

Okay, I shall blog more again soonish! Hope everyone's doing fine as well (:

2009-08-12T22:29:00.003+08:00

I think I'm going to lose a lot of weight staying in hall. All I ate the whole of today was 3/4 a double cheeseburger, 1/2 a packet of fries and coke, a watermelon, 3 sotong balls, and 3 crab nuggets! Which is like very little compared to what I usually eat. And I keep sweating from the humidity and climbing all the stairs. Phew!

School has been fine so far, only got lost once when my friend and I took the wrong bus >_> I've been having pretty good luck lately, like suddenly meeting friends in the lecture theatre when I thought I was gonna have to sit alone! Heng ah. Hopefully this lucky streak will continue.

And friends, please come visit me at NTU soon! (:

2009-08-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE (:
I'm fully rested from my fever now and feeling much better although I'm still hacking away like an old man. For those who didn't know, I was away for camp for a week at the other side of Singapore. Speaking of which, I really wanted to die travelling there on the first day, and because I totally underestimated the travelling time, I was late for 15 minutes :(

Anyway, my first experience as an NTU student was interesting, because it is seriously unlike any other school I've ever been to before. Even though I've had my fair share of being cheena at DHS, the cheena-ness at NTU was in an entire league of its own and quite often I found myself having a culture shock. Luckily for me my OG was not that cheena so I could adapt quite well, I think. Anyhow, my OG actually won which is quite surprising because we were damn slack and it's the first time any group/house I'm in ever won champion. So maybe my luck will be better in NTU.

And I am also quite happy I went for the camp because I found out there are still cute guys at NTU after all, so I don't need to worry about the lack of eye candies and all. HAHAHA. xD

2009-07-23T01:35:00.002+08:00

Thank the Dark Lord, for the blogging box is finally back to its original size. (Yes, I'm currently in a very Harry Potter mood after reading HPwiki)

So I am supposed to go for a camp at last, next week, for the Cultural Activities Club. I am kinda one of those people who love camps for what they're worth, the mindless ra-ra-ing and all, but one thing I cannot understand is this - why the hell do they need to come up with some lame-ass theme like making us pretend we're warlords fighting to protect our country etc etc?!?

I mean look at this (taken from the FOC blog which I very resourcefully found on my own :p)

The dawn of spring marks the arrival of a beginning. Not just the beginning of a new year, a new season, but more importantly, the beginning of a new era. For the kings of Cephoria rule not only with wisdom and justice, the magic of the King-Priest is the only magic capable of protecting the kingdom from the touch of demons. And the magical prowess of the heir is supposedly unmatched as ar back as the founding of the kingdom. Yet that magical protection is not impermeable. Not since that fateful night two decades ago...

(My favourite phrases highlighted for your reading pleasure)
Okay....

So am I supposed to feel excited upon reading this? I mean, if I really do feel hyped up I should consider myself an extreme weirdo.

Seriously, I'm starting to regret going for a camp at all, because I realise for the horrendous Secret Pal thing I am going to have random interactions with this stranger I know nothing about, not even his face! Do you think it'll be extremely anti-social of me to refuse to do that? =/
Ok whatever I'll figure something out. Go me.

2009-07-21T21:18:00.001+08:00

Oh god, I'm exceedingly bored this week because so many of my friends are away at camp! :( I'm reduced to pretending that my tutees and driving instructor are my friends. HAHA okay that's a hyperbole.

Anyway, because there's something wrong with the Blogger interface I'm not gonna blog any longer, I'm typing in a textbox the size of a pin and it's annoying!

2009-07-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

The Chocolate Research Facility choc the duckpigs got for me are awesome-pawsome! The packaging do use a bit of improvement though; it looks kinda like a pack of condoms. =/

By the way, the longest solar eclipse of the century is coming on the 22nd July! I'm not very sure if we can see it from Singapore, but according to my second best friend (after google), wikipedia, we should be able to see a partial eclipse. Exciting much!

Today, (looks like the start of an FML hahaha) I finally went to find out more about how the academic units thing for university works. It sounds quite scary! Like I'm supposed to complete 34 core units in the first year, not counting the electives! OMG. But anyway I've already decided that my persona for uni will be the "hardworking, intellectual girl" so it's going to be quite a drastic change from my "enthusiastic, fun-loving" persona in JC. Actually I really want to work hard because I want to go for all those drool-worthy studying abroad programmes. Wish me luck!

2009-07-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

So my 19th birthday came and went, nothing too interesting there, but just a few days after celebrating I learnt of some superstition that it's bad luck to celebrate all birthdays with a 9 in it. Now I'm jinxed! :/ (To all those who forgot to wish me, shame on you! HAHAHA)

Anyway, birthdays are starting to feel like any other normal day; perhaps that's how they were supposed to feel anyway before commercialism took over and made us believe in indulgence. Okay I'm starting to sound like that "Fornications of a young adult" guy. Thanks rah for that great recommendation. I literally LOL-ed at it.

So nowadays I'm just living each day as it is, hoping time will pass faster because bumming around has never been so boring before. I am really super duper sick of bumming around for so long.

One good thing that came out of it, though, was that I started reading again! I can't believe I only just read the Margaret Atwood novel I bought more than a year back. But anyway it's really, really good so now I am super into Atwood and reading all the novels she's written so far.

But seriously, I'm quite sad that I wasted 8 months doing absolutely nothing worth mentioning and in the end I hardly achieved anything I wanted to. How predictable ):

2009-06-30T13:19:00.003+08:00

I feel extra paranoid whenever I am having my period. (Something to do with hormonal changes?) The phone just rang and when I picked it up (being the only anti-social hermit left in the house), instead of hearing a friendly "hello?", there was this creepy melody playing. Crap. I hope it's not some "One Missed Call" moment. I don't want to die like, days before my birthday please.

Anyway, my driving lessons started again after, omg, one month! The new instructor seems nice but looks are deceiving and I must remind myself not to be too nice! Ironically, I am super nice to strangers but extremely horrid to people I know sometimes. But anyway, my point is, I am super happy because the ID number I got from him was "37"!!! Lucky, much? It's like a super good omen. I'm bound to pass my practical now!

And I am secretly confident of my driving skills hahaha. I have not striked any kerb at all so far! :D

2009-06-26T00:22:00.001+08:00

One more week and I'm gonna be 19. T_T Sian ttm!

2009-06-21T16:04:00.003+08:00

OK, I think I haven't been so angry in a long time, and my anger is, surprisingly, directed to my asshole of a private driving instructor. So he goes MIA for 2 - 3 weeks, and after my constant pestering, he finally replies me with a simple message that I should go and look for a new instructor because he's facing some problems.

Goodness, like I'm going to believe him and let the matter rest! But whatever it is, I am definitely not going to learn under him anymore and am therefore looking for an instructor once again. What a bother and now my test date is going to be like super duper late! ARGH.

/edit: Everything appears to be settled for now...What a horrid experience =/

2009-06-20T00:04:00.002+08:00

I swear I just saw my rabbits lying side by side, with one's arm on the other's body. OMFG. Soon they are going to start snoring in their sleep or something. Goodness.

2009-06-18T17:17:00.002+08:00

After reading my previous blog posts, I conclude that I am subconsciously an incredibly narcissistic person. I'm serious, because every single blog post beneath this one starts with the word "I"! OMG! I need to consciously make an effort to start blogging with a letter other than "I", but that's incredibly difficult.

Anws, so there's something I have been pondering over for a looong time now, and that is how I stupidly believe every single thing people tell me/I read/watch/hear of. I am too easily cheated! This is both a good and bad thing, because it proves that I believe human nature is good, but bad because it screams naivety! I need to apply the driving principle here: Perception, judgment, reaction. I'm one of those people who skip the whole judgment step, which probably also explains why I often spout mean things.

It is also rather ironic because I consider myself to be a good liar. Boohoo.

2009-06-15T13:32:00.002+08:00

I have this habit of making sure every single file in my computer is properly arranged in the right folder and with the proper name, but because I've been too ~~lazy~~ busy to do so lately, I have months' worth of documents and photos piling up everywhere, all over the desktop. I swear I'm going bonkers trying to arrange them properly now. I can't even remember where some of the photos were taken! Thank goodness there was this period of time when I suddenly decided cam-whoring was boring so there aren't that many photos; of course, I am now back to the good old camwhore I used to be (:

Anws, there's less than two months left now to the start of uni life! Exciting, yo! I've applied for hostel already, and although I'm a little worried about hygiene there and things like taking care of my meals and laundry, it all sounds pretty fun. Best part of all is I'm sharing with Yuhan! We can like, gossip through the night and all. :D

OK, I better get back to organising my desktop. Speaking of which, I thought of a name for my laptop finally, but I'm not telling you! HAHA

2009-06-11T20:58:00.001+08:00

I should have known better than to promise myself anything openly on the blog.

:( I went and got myself this ultimately chio pink LG laptop! Okay, but who cares, I'm super duper happy with it and trying to think of a name for it. Suggestions, anyone?

2009-06-05T23:34:00.003+08:00

I PASSED MY FTT!!! :D:D I sooo rock. But honestly I wonder if I can pass my TP. /dreads

And I have a newfound love for Baileys. How can anything taste so creamy, sweet, and alcoholic at the same time?! I also discovered something strange. I tend to feel more drowsy after drinking beer as compared to beverages with higher alcoholic content. Weird. Anyway this is what I'm talking about:

I can't wait for the PC Show next weekend! I'm finally going to get my own laptop (: Hopefully I won't end up buying something pink, because I'm trying to shake off the whole "cutesy" image. OK, please don't laugh at me for thinking I have a cute image in the first place xD.

My love for rilakkuma won't end though. :D

2009-06-03T13:16:00.003+08:00

I am too lazy to study for my FTT right now, but the test is tomorrow and I don't want to fail again :( Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator. I wonder how I am going to survive in university!

Also, I have finally found a phone which I like!! Yay! Which is good news, because my phone is really dying. It keeps shutting down by itself and I never get messages until hours later and they all come at the same time. How annoying.

2009-06-01T01:18:00.001+08:00

Life is so tragic.

2009-05-28T15:28:00.003+08:00

I am mourning the loss of some of my favourite household item brands no longer found in any supermarket near my house. It gets rather depressing thinking about how I now have to make do with other brands from now on. T_T

In other news, I am like, 3/4 likely to become a student of NTU. I am going to have no friends in NTU! Can everyone please stop accepting FASS/NUS Biz?? :(

you tiny little life forms

2009-05-27T14:47:00.002+08:00

I am now officially a huge Star Trek: TNG fan. I have been youtubing funny videos and have watched the one of Data singing his life forms song 5 times now. It's so incredibly cute! He's definitely my favourite character in the series now. Does anyone have the DVDs for loan? Preferably Seasons 3 - 7 thank you very much.

2009-05-06T14:42:00.003+08:00

Hello to those of you lovely people who still read my blog! I am kinda back from my mental-blogging hiatus, during which absolutely nothing fascinating has happened. It was supposed to be some sort of precious thought-sorting-out time but I suppose things didn't work out as well as they were supposed to. Maybe I should try a different method this time. Oh well, life still goes on!

So, of course several things have happened so far, like how I'm currently taking driving lessons. I just had my second one earlier today, which was pretty much disastrous because half-clutching pwned me. The car was basically moving and I didn't even know how or why =/

Also, my PC completely died on me, which was partly why I was so MIA with photos and stuff. Actually I have decided to remain MIA for the rest of the pictures except for rong's, because she's persistent like that despite my ignoring of her pleas. HAHA!

More importantly, of course, would be all the uni applications. Still rather sad and annoying that NUS didn't bother giving me a chance for an interview, seeing how I just checked the self-service thing and found that I have been accepted into FASS. A cause for celebration for others, perhaps, but I figure it's probably not where I want to be. Right now it seems I am most likely headed to NTU, which is kinda depressing because of various reasons. I'm still waiting for SMU to give me a reply, though, so hopefully there's still a silver lining somewhere.

But anyway, I am starting to feel like I'm getting into a rut here, so I can't wait for school to start. I always expected the 8-month holiday to be so much more fun! I suppose it was fun at first, but after a while, shopping/dating/movie-watching can only bring me that much joy. I need to inject new life into this horrid routine of mine!

So, I've made some plans so far, but they're still in the initial stages. Let's see how things go.

and it's time to say goodbye, for now.

2009-04-07T00:58:00.004+08:00

Okay, so this is now my third week of bumming around, been pretty successful so far. I like how I can wake up at pretty much any time I want, sleep as late as my eyelids will allow me to, and meet anyone I want. So yes, life's quite good. If only it can be like this forever!

Even tutoring's fun. I totally love my new China tutee, he's so hardworking and earnest! Although I think he may be faking it sometimes. But anyhow, it's been fun refreshing my memory of "past perfect tenses" and "modals" and the like. I think I can really consider a future career as an English teacher or something.

But anyway, quite a lot of things have happened the past week, so I probably need some time to ponder things through and...make decisions.

What I'm saying, of course, is that it's high time for a hiatus of an unknown length. A bit sudden, yes, but then I'm random and trendy like that.

And just for the curious:
NUS: Law, FASS, Biz, Accts
NTU: Biz, SCI, Accts
SMU: Law, Biz

My rationale is that if NUS Law doesn't want me, I would prefer NTU Biz. And if even NTU doesn't want me (T_T) I will go to NUS FASS lor.

Okay, so, till the next post, BBs! <3 If you feel a huge, urgent need for a piece of me, maybe facebook will do the trick. Otherwise, please cherish the next few months or so before university life starts. Hooray!

2009-04-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

I am srsly a happy fangirl now.

Hiro Mizushima and ayaka are getting married!!! It's like such an "OMFG" moment.

And YUI's new song is finally out. Yippee~

2009-03-31T13:44:00.003+08:00

OH GOD.

Why hasn't NUS received my documents! SMU has already received mine!!

I'm going to freak out if I check tomorrow and see that they still haven't received them. =X

[/edit] Okay, phew, NUS finally received them like one hour ago. Also, 1 more hour to Episode 25!!! OMG OMG.

2009-03-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

HELLO people! I am back from Malaysia!

Okay, actually I've been back for more than a day already. Still.

It was a surprisingly fun trip because the place wasn't as ulu as I imagined it to be. I was seriously expecting one of those old-school bucket-style toilets, but they actually had a flushing system with a toilet bowl! <3 much. Plus they had AIR-CON!

And I saw a lot of my relatives for the first time ever, since it's my first time back to my dad's hometown. A total of 5 aunts, 3 uncles, a about a thousand cousins. Yep, my dad has 12 siblings, but two of them were, apparently, given away after they were born. How sad! But my point is, it's amazing how they all look so alike. Whenever I look at my Second Uncle it's like I'm looking at my dad 12 years later (that's how far apart they are in age).

The most exciting part was probably that I ate wild boar meat. HAHA. And I sat on a motorbike for the first time in my life (ulu much?), because my mom refuses to let me do so in Singapore. I swear I'm still going to learn how to ride a bike one day though, when I'm older. I think it's lots of fun :D

Okay, so enough ranting for now. I'm still pissed that bloody Liew never did my referee report for me, but luckily for him, I'm not gonna kill him because I decided not to apply anyway. Too lazy :/

And I need Episode 24, like NOW. Prince Song ftw!

2009-03-26T20:49:00.002+08:00

Okay, LOOLLLL. The math tuition person just cancelled on me. Fine and dandy on my part, but I can't really stand her attitude. Anyway I realise that working life has changed me in that I am so much more patient now. I actually say "thank you" and "it's alright" and that sort of thing when I should be saying "screw you" or "f***" instead. So proud of myself.

2009-03-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

I just pretty much had a disastrous tuition session. The student (who, by the way, is supposed to be 17 this year, but she looks like she's 13 years old!) wanted me to help her with this Math question on circles, angles and that sort of thing, THE TOPIC which I happen to be most terrible at after Trigo and Integration, and I was completely stumped. ZOMG. Attempted to try out some ways to solve the question, but in the end I gave up and honestly told her I had no freaking idea how to do the question.

SORRY MR LAM! I do not deserve an A in Maths, srsly.

I should stick to teaching English. At least I know my present perfect tenses and that sort of thing by heart. And this means I seriously need to some reading up on Maths before the next lesson. Boo.

Couple of things to look forward to:
-Virgin sao mu-ing trip to Malaysia this weekend! I'm quite enthralled by the whole idea of this sao-mu thing. I still remember very vividly the picture in the primary school textbook on this topic!
-4th APRIL!

I can't believe I really have all the time in the world now, being jobless. I can just lead my life really impromptu-ly! :D Like today, I decided it was time to do my uni applications and I actually had 3 hours completely free to do it! So yay, I'm all settled. And I'm keeping my choice a secret. :p Do you think I chose FASS or Biz in the end? HAHA.

DETROIT METAL CITY tmr <3

2009-03-23T12:45:00.003+08:00

New skin, BBs! It's so plain and simple, I like <3

First time in my life I am so indecisive. I can't decide whether Biz > FASS, or FASS > Biz! One day I would think the former, and the next day, the latter. GRR. I need to hurry up too, since I'm going to Malaysia on Saturday.

Anyway...life is starting to get a little boring so I'm looking to spice things up a little. Maybe I should join the dance course like wuyue? Or maybe I should go and learn yoga and learn to be at peace with my soul and all that jazz. Dunno, better go and think of something soon, else I'm just gonna rot and home and give tuition every now and then.

Speaking of which, I'm fretting a little because I know nuts about 'O' Level statistics and I'm supposed to teach that really soon. Oh no.

And @xinrong: I NEED NEW SHOES!!!

2009-03-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF WORK TODAY, awesome stuff <3
Super uneventful, I didn't even manage to say a proper goodbye with some of my colleagues! Ah well, I suppose that's how transient working life is.

Some things I'll miss (a little): Boss's incessant nagging because it's quite funny sometimes and his funny manner of speaking. Gossiping. Eating lunch at TP and ogling the hot policemen. Friendly security guards. (seriously, I vote security guards the friendliest profession! Everywhere I go where there is one, they will smile and wave to me!)

Anyway, I have now confirmed the theory that jobs come and look for me. Right after I leave my job, I get a new tuition assignment!

So I'm super fretting now, because my SIA application is left undone and there's what, 1 hour left only? Worse still, I'm currently suffering a writer's block. Which is why I am going to take a rest and rush it at the very last minute =/

Wish me luck, mates.

2009-03-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

You know how sometimes you feel like you are a stranger looking at yourself lead your life? Well, it was one of those unusual days for me today. I was still chirpy and all in the morning, but then I suddenly found myself zoning out.

Work as usual today, after a one day break yesterday. Something considerably interesting was how a colleague of mine who happens to be Catholic tried to persuade me into going for Mass this coming Friday. I think I was giving off vibes halfway between showing interest and nonchalence, but then I probably failed because he went on and on and on. But admittedly, I'm still willing to give religion a try, just maybe, not now.

Anyway, I'm having a lot of fun online shopping now. Seems like I'm going to fall in love with it all over again! :D

2009-03-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

Wow I am so glad I emailed SPH to ask about their scholarship deadline; it turns out to be this Friday! o: Luckily I had started preparing for it already, otherwise I'll definitely have to give it a miss. I think I've wanted this scholarship ever since I found out about it in IP1.

I have successfully completed quite a number of things on my 101 in 1001, which makes me feel really happy and like my life is finally moving on.

1) Go to a concert (still pending, and yes, I know, what an ulu gui I am!)
2) Talk to a random stranger
3) Cut my hair short
4) Feel happy about my 'A' Level results (serious!)

And hopefully more to come =)

Okay, I need to hurry up and finish reading Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Woods. It's due tomorrow! >_> One of my 101 is not to chalk up a single library fine. HAHA.

2009-03-09T13:11:00.002+08:00

Yay, I just successfully tendered my resignation! My last day of work will be next Friday which is...20th March. Whoopee =D

So I'm going to be free to do anything I want from then on! Not planning to get a new job anytime soon except maybe going into full-time tutoring.

And hopefully I'll manage to get all the travelling plans out and enjoy myself before university starts.

Alright, back to acting like I'm really busy at work - I'm getting rather good at that.

2009-03-07T21:23:00.003+08:00

Hello people! (: I suppose I'm more or less at peace with my results now. I'm still not very sure why I cried so hard yesterday, but then it was cathartic and after I stopped there was a certain calmness in me.

Results were almost as expected, except for chem which was really disappointing. I blame it on SPA and Mr Chang. Boo. And lit, which I fully blame on myself. All I can say now is "bye bye" to Law. Can't help thinking that getting A for GP is completely useless.

Anyhow, I feel kinda bad and selfish because I was so absorbed in myself yesterday that I neglected to give people the comfort/congratulations that they needed/deserved. I'm such a bad friend!

So now what's next is considering all my options. I suppose I'm still going to try for Law school, but I doubt I'm going to get through the first round of selection. I realise I really don't know what else I want to do! :(

Decisions, decisions, decisions, all to be made within a month!

panic attacks

2009-03-05T20:29:00.003+08:00

Okay, I completely take back what I said yesterday.

I had a total of two panic attacks today, one in the morning when my colleague walked in and asked "are you feeling worried about tomorrow?" (she's my age!) and a second time when I was at a meeting and completely daydreaming ~~because the meeting doesn't concern me anyway~~ and my mind just wandered.

I just want to go ARGHZOMGWTFHOLYSHIT.

If I don't blog within the next 3 days it probably means I'm hiding beneath the sheets crying my ass off. :(

Alright, going off soon to Jove's. I kind of hope LKF calls in the morning to scream about our results. But then again, maybe not.

OMGGGGGGGGGG.

2009-03-04T20:54:00.003+08:00

Surprisingly I'm not as worried about Friday as I thought I would be. I've been sleeping better than I have been in weeks and not a single nightmare, yet! HAHA. Hopefully this is some kind of a good omen. But of course this could be subconscious self-denial too. =/

Work has been quite enjoyable lately, mainly because I've started talking more to my other colleagues. Decided that it's quite pointless keeping quiet just to stay neutral among the politics. Somehow my strategy is working, because I have managed to maintain good relationships with both sides! I suppose the key is to close my ears when necessary.

Anyway, I'm going to quit latest end March, looking forward to freedom after that! :D

I need to start making life more happening for myself.

2009-03-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

If it's even possible, I'm feeling annoyed and happy at the same time. IDK, maybe I was just born to multi-task.

Currently reading this random forum topic about guys taking up a challenge called "100 girls in a week". Super wth right? The things guys do to boost their egos. -_-

2009-03-02T19:32:00.003+08:00

Merlion hit by lightning.

LOLOLOLOL.

Only 4 more sleepless nights to go! I'm kinda half excited for it, and half afraid of it.

Shopping at JB was kinda fruitful yesterday, I think I might be in love with FOS now! And yay for the exchange rate (:

I think I kind of want to visit Pulau Ubin next, I can't believe I've never been there before! =/

And I believe I am starting to come to terms with the fact that I have impossibly high expectations. Time to come back to reality..

2009-02-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

The fangirling cycle kind of goes like this for me: for 2 months or so, I will be this complete fanatic refreshing the page every couple of minutes, WILLING the subbed episode to appear miraculously, and then for the next 3 months, I will be this internet-hating kind of bookworm. Anyway, I'm currently in the heat of the fanatic phase, and I really wish episode 16 would appear soon. :(

Sigh. Shall make do with fan discussions and photos for the moment.

I'm also feeling frustrated because I simply cannot operate with less than 9 hours of sleep. I've been walking around like a zombie lately because I sleep too late and wake up too damn early for work and I hate the feeling! I need to do something about this "need-for-a-lot-of-sleep" illness.

I also plan to cut my hair sometime soon. I am so bloody sick of long hair!

2009-02-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

You know how there's this "list of emo songs" meme circulating around facebook? I wish it was a "list of happy songs" instead, I have so many loves for that! <3

Anyway, KimBum is my new love. He completely redefines the term "hotness"! <3<3<3 Everyone should watch the Korean boys over flowers, it is so unbelievably good!

Also, I have found a new website to entertain myself. I love self-deprecatory people. If you think your life is screwed up, think again after reading this.

2009-02-20T14:08:00.002+08:00

Because there is nothing much to do at work, I have been reading lots of online news from websites like straitstimes, STOMP and Todayonline. By chance, I read the one about reducing transport fares, and I was feeling quite happy by the prospect of paying less for the horrid adult fare. Much to my disappointment, though, the so called "reduction" is a mere 2cents. Total fail yo.

My favourite is STOMP though, because all sorts of weird people post up news items which make no sense to me at all. Seriously, do we want to read about someone putting their shopping on the seats etc?

In other news, the rumour that results will be out on 6th March is getting more and more valid support. Prepare to die, comrades. My heart is going tokidoki as I type this.

2009-02-18T21:28:00.001+08:00

A brainless animation of rilakkuma and friends taking a trip to the onsen. Didn't fail to make me smile though =D

2009-02-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

I am so completely out of touch with this alien territory known as "school". Heck, it took me a whole minute to remember Ho Wei Kang's name! And I still can't recall the name of that fat chemistry teacher after almost an hour. =/ Anyone can help me with this?

Also, sorry to all to whom I still owe photos! I am too lazy for my own good. :(

It has also dawned on me that I have basically been wasting my time these past 3 months or so. Sure, I've been having lots of fun meeting up with people and spending money like free, but I realise I haven't done anything meaningful! This is horrible. Post-As are supposed to be like, enriching and unforgettable and all.

2009-02-12T13:34:00.002+08:00

SLACK SLACK SLACK!
Everyone's out of the office besides me and my other colleague (the other whom I'm closest to) so it's slacking time all the way. Contrary to popular belief, slacking can be sian when you bum around for tooo long.

Anyway, I've been introduced to what people dearly term "office politics" these few days, and somehow, as always, I find myself belonging to every single clique. I think I have the "I'm friends with everyone" face so they all think I'm harmless. Good for me lah, but I just hope no major conflict occurs to make me caught in the middle.

So I've finally made up my mind to learn driving after all. I was a bit afraid of the idea of driving on the streets at first but now I think it will be useful for me to learn before university, so yes, my aim is to pass it the first time round! :D

It's one of the items on my 101 in 1001 days list, which I've restarted doing. Stuck at no. 31, omigosh. It's so difficult to think of realistic goals!

In other news, V-day is just around the corner. I think I'm starting to feel the jitters about being single and all. OMG. I'm getting old :(

2009-02-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

I am currently super addicted to the Korean version of Hana Yori Dango as well as Mei-chan no Shitsuji. The internet rocks! <3

Also, I found a new job last Saturday and started work today at this company called Modern-Pak which is super random because it seems to do all sorts of things, but mainly it focuses on plastic packaging. Anyways, I'm still not too sure what my job scope is but it was a good first day of work because half the day was spent in my boss' car to places like his farm in Lim Chu Kang and his friend's house.

And I felt like I was back to school today when he asked me to help mix chemicals like iron and copper sulphate to make fertiliser. So fun.

Only problem I have is worrying about what to wear. It seems so difficult to fathom what "work appropriate" clothing means.

Anyhow, the weather's been really bad these few days and I've been getting serious cases of sweaty palms and feet o: It's really horrid because I keep slipping around in my shoes and my hands feel permanently sticky. The world's so super chaotic now; it's like floods in a certain area, droughts and fires in another. The end of the world is coming!!

Please let me sleep

2009-02-06T09:38:00.001+08:00

It's three days in a row now, that I have been rudely awoken by either some thing or another. OMG, I swear I am going crazy soon. It doesn't help that I'm one of those people who take forever (i.e. one to two hours) rolling about in my bed just to fall asleep.

*goes into a swearing rant*

2009-02-05T16:26:00.002+08:00

I NEED A JOB.

My mom would pass me the papers in the morning and I will sit there happily circling the jobs I think I can try for. Then when I'm done, I throw the newspapers aside. So much for jobhunting. =/

Anyway, I'm starting to feel really annoyed by all these family gatherings when they go like "hey bring your boyfriend along too!", and I'll just smile sheepishly. I need to find a pretend boyfriend to solve all these woes! =( Oh, how I wish they really did manufacture hot robots as boyfriends like in zettai kareshi. I want I want!

2009-02-01T15:45:00.002+08:00

It's been slightly more than a week since I've been out of work, and life's pretty good! :D I've been watching loads of DVDs and now I've finally found a new drama I want to watch, with my loves Nana Eikura and Hiro Mizushima! <3 My heart must be really full because I have so many loves.

I probably should start job hunting next week but something tells me I will keep making excuses not to start. Anyway, orientation's starting tomorrow and I'm looking forward to mass dancing at suntec! Gosh, how I miss those uniform donning, brainless days when we just sit around lecture halls irritating fellow lecture mates out. And Chemistry lessons laughing at Mr Chang's ring tone and silently cursing under our breaths. Damn, I even miss Liew!

Alright, my download's complete so I'm off to watch the drama now! Yippee!

2009-01-29T01:14:00.003+08:00

HELLO ALL! I am back from Malaysia :D

Over the past few days, I have strangely acquired an obsession for cleanliness. I feel highly disturbed to see any stray strands of hair lying anywhere near me, and freak out when there are random spots of dirt on the table top.

I also feel depressed because one of my random malaysian relatives thought I was 26 years old. Like, wth? I am depressed.

happy days!

2009-01-24T18:51:00.003+08:00

Everyday's going to be a happy day from now on :D The hours after the last day of work were awesome, complete liberation.

Plans for now include working at the child care centre with anthea chua and her friend, or if that doesn't work out, starbucks which is supposedly hiring. Otherwise, I'm sure a short walk around a mall will turn out fruitful. Whatever the case, I'm totally taking a loooong break before starting any new job.

And the army boys are out, so it's time to laugh at their bald heads and listen to them yak yak yak about army stuff.

Anyway, Chinese New Year's coming up in two days, which means hongbao, good food, and partying mood! I'll be off to Malaysia after a reunion lunch at home tomorrow, looking forward most to the car ride. But this year we'll be staying at the vacant house instead so I'm really looking forward to that too.

So yes, have a great Chinese New Year! I'll be back soon XD

2009-01-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

So I've been thinking about juggling two blogs so I can enjoy the privacy of lj while still hanging on to my old flame, blogger, but I really can't find much reason to do so. I mean, I don't even blog about anything too secretive for the world to see so I really don't have much use for locked entries. PLUS I have this unfounded love for blogger.

I shall just continue using lj to comment on people's blogs for the time being. Maybe I should start posting up my writings again. But I've kind of passed that shameless stage of thinking my poems are great stuff >_>

Anyway, NTU has just reaffirmed my suspicions that it is a boring school. I mean, which school holds its admissions talks on Valentine's Day?!? The teachers and students obviously lead very loveless lives.

Lastly, people whom I have not seen since the end of the world, please message me or call me and tell me about your life. I think miraculously my hatred for phone calls has been more or less cured. The random benefits of working in customer service, along with tricks on how to avoid calls or "accidentally" hanging up calls.

To fulfil my social quota of the day I shall be off to surf facebook. The lovely era of voyeurism.

2009-01-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

The gloom from yesterday feels so far away. It's like some monster took over my body for the day. But it's okay, the old jiayi is back again (: Hopefully this is not just the eye of the tornado though, any other horrid event and I am sure I will collapse.

If there was anything at all to be grateful about having worked at that horrid place, it would be the wonderful colleagues I've met and the random people who help me when I most need it. I really need to count my lucky stars! I mean 90% of the colleagues of course. Hur hur.

Someone from my block committed suicide while I was still at work. My mum and sister were at home and heard the horrifying thud. I think if I were at home I would probably have been scared to tears. The proximity of death, even that of a complete stranger, makes me feel so discomfited.

Anyhow, spring cleaning must be done tomorrow. My room's in a horrid mess.

2009-01-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hello people. I hope you had a day far better than mine. No, wait, you couldn't possibly have had a day worse than mine; i swear this was the worst day of my life, ever.

I feel like I'm gradually sinking into depression.

a queer day indeed

2009-01-13T23:34:00.007+08:00

So, it takes a lot for me to say the f-word out loud, and I'm really surprised I still have not been pushed to that limit in this lousy excuse of a job thus far. I think I have amazing willpower, although "bitchface" is now word of the day. I swear HC girl aka bitchface's favourite pet has one of the ugliest faces I've ever seen in my life.

If you are super free/without a job that sucks the life out of you kindly be referred to my ex-colleague's blog (ex because she has quit, lucky her) and read about her experiences which may not be the same as mine, but the extent of irritation is roughly equal.

Counting down, counting down. 9 more horrid days to go!

But anyway, the area near my workplace is like really nice! While walking to Central today I saw lots of pretty temples and all which made me feel so in touch with my roots. I should really walk around Chinatown more.

OK so I went walking around/shopping with Yuhan today after work (I only managed to run out at 6.10pm by using the excuse that "I had a wedding dinner to attend"; told you I was the queen of excuses) and I got my pretty pretty shoes! <3

Anyway the point is that while we were walking from Clarke Quay to City Hall MRT Station in a bid to save about 50cents, we were stunned by this extremely curious sight of a random angmoh dude clinging on to the frontview mirror of a minivan which stopped right in the middle of the road. He clung on for probably about a minute or two, and then suddenly he slided off, perhaps because he was tired or something. But anyway, the minute he landed on his feet, he simply walked off to the pavement and the van drove away, as though nothing happened at all.

So obviously I was a bit shocked and frightened by all this, and there was this group of girls saying "OMG he's coming our way" and I was super scared by now, so I just grabbed Yuhan and we started walking really fast away. At that point of time I really thought he was psycho and was going to stab us. Which he obviously didn't in the end, since I am happily dandily typing away here.

Later on, he caught up with us and we saw that he was walking with a limp, and the conclusion yuhan came up with was that the van knocked into him and to prevent the driver from running away, he clung on to the van until he gave up and simply walked away.

Strange huh?

So that summarizes the day for me, and I am so looking forward to work tomorrow with my wonderful colleagues and boss! =D What a wonderful world.

/edit: Extracted from the dullest blog in the world. Makes me laugh like shit even though I'm reading this the fourth time.

Tidying some pencils...
Some pencils were scattered around on my desk. I picked them up one by one. I placed the pencils in the drawer which I use to store pencils.

This is seriously made of win.

oh gloomy days

2009-01-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

Work has basically been horrid, but I don't wish to dwell on the bad things so I'm not gonna bitch here. To summarize, it doesn't matter whether or not you are more highly educated/capable than the boss, the one who pays you has the final say. And boy, does she make my blood boil. I swear I'm never ever gonna order from them dishonest business dealers!

At least I'll be richer soon. =/ And....11 more days. Whee.

CNY Shopping Part 1 was really fruitful, looking forward to the sequels! I have sooo many things I need to buy, got to stock up way before for uni. I simply cannot imagine wearing the same thing over and over again! Like, jeans and t-shirt jeans and t-shirt jeans and t-shirt. I will feel faint looking at myself in the mirror.

I suddenly feel like going ice-skating! Any takers? :D Ask me out please, people! I feel a lack of fulfilment for my social calendar.

2009-01-08T00:47:00.002+08:00

I realise now that I miss school a lot. The comfort of knowing there's a place you belong to, with a fixed schedule and all. And all the memories are running through my mind; all the late nights planning events/studying, hanging out after lessons, random fun. What an emo night.

Goodbye and all the best to all to-be NS men, although you probably won't be seeing this. Sorry for forgetting to wish you good luck if I didn't, I am honestly not good with such details!

I suffer from Facebook inferiority complex

2009-01-05T23:25:00.003+08:00

According to the Sunday Times, if you feel that you do not have enough friends, enough replies to your status screaming "I just went to the toilet", or that you are never invited to the good parties shown on your friends' photos, you are suffering from a facebook inferiority complex.

Oh man, how I identify with that. I should go around spamming people's walls to increase my virtual presence.

HAHAHA, okay, I was obviously kidding. I am happy enough with the number of friends I have and I just did a massive spring-cleaning, i.e. deleting anyone I have spoken less than three sentences to (not including hi and bye). But anyway, I think that facebook is like, becoming so invasive. It kind of scares me that it's one of the first websites I log on to everytime I come online. The others ranking high behind my livejournal friends page and gmail (duh).

And for the record, I'm working as a customer service officer at hoya hampers! So stop asking me! Work's robbing me of my social life though, I'm reduced to meeting people in the evenings ):

But life's still good! :D I'm feeling particularly organised with a lovely rilakkuma calendar on my desk (thank you anthea! <3), and the schedule for the week fully planned out.

Currently busy with trying to think up of a good plot for the chicklit writing competition. OMG, the deadline's like 31st Jan! :o Jiayou jiayou!

I forgot to tap my card today ):

2009-01-02T23:40:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone, how's 2009 treating you so far? My 2009's been a really sleepy affair, haven't been sleeping enough.

We're groovy people

I suppose the best way to welcome the new year for me is to watch the fireworks after all, although I wasn't as excited as I usually get about it. And anyway, squeezing through the crowd sucks. It totally brings the word claustrophobia to a whole new level.

'Twas funny about the joke though.
"Who's from Singapore?" "mumble mumble."
"Who's from Bangladesh?" "ROARRRRR"

Okay, photo uploading time.

Hope tomorrow will be a good day too :D

Thank you, Mr. 2008

2008-12-31T13:56:00.002+08:00

I like to give inanimate objects genders, like how Donut is female, and how my computer is male. In the same vein of thought, I decided 2008 is male. It might sound a little strange to you, or actually very strange to you, but I felt that in 2008, the areas which I progressed in most were mainly masculine. It's quite hard to explain, and it's probably very subjective. So 2008 could very well be female to you.

Okay whatever it is, I'm sure 2008 was a very important year to most of us, what with the A Levels and all. I think ten years later, I will look back and think of it as the year I mugged the amount I did the previous 11 years within 2 months.

Hmmm, it's getting quite hard to blog, I'm self-censoring quite a bit here.

In terms of happiness, I must say that 2008 was only slightly happier than 2007, and sadder than 2006. Somehow I feel like I've been spacing out most of the year. I think I was just too affected by the constant comparisons with other people and insecurities on my own part.

Made lots of new friends this year too, and became so much closer to others. I think this is one of my greatest achievements. But on the flipside, I also lost quite a lot friends in the form of acquaintances because I honestly couldn't be bothered with people I don't even like anymore.

Which makes me wonder whether I should have joined council after all. I was honestly not very happy in council, mainly due to personality clashes and all. But then I suppose I could have handled things differently so this is a double-edged sword kind of issue.

Alright, so the real NYR2009
1) Spend more quality me-time
2) Stop procrastinating/making last minute decisions
3) Keep in contact with everyone
4) Grow up
5) Love myself more

Yes, we should all keep looking forward although we should stop every now and then and think about the past. So hopefully 2009 will be a happy, happy year since it signifies a brand new start for all of us! :D Happy New Year y'all and have a great year ahead!

2008-12-28T15:36:00.003+08:00

A shout-out to Jovena here for the lovely Rilakkuma goodies from Japan <3 Much love. And now the beans and taugays are in Hong Kong, lucky them! Hopefully our own trip planning will work out, eventually. WUYUE we've been talking about this since super long ago! And duckpigs, TIOMAN! Hahaha.

Hope your weekend has been good, mine was super hectic but fun. Anyway I can't believe it but I'm starting work on Monday! :o And there's still a lot of people I haven't seen this holiday, like ANDREA CHOW! :( Luckily it's only for a month. After that I think I want to try out a job as a waitress or salesgirl or something, just for the fun of it. :D

I'm feeling inspired to redecorate my room into some really cutesy theme. Don't say I'm act cute OK, we're only young once and you can't possibly be doing that when you're like, 40 years old!

Am off to catch up on the TV I missed the past few days. And here thus ends the life of a slacker and the beginning of life as a pseudo office lady.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-25T00:48:00.005+08:00

With Rilakkuma wishing you a merry christmas, albeit with strange English, it's bound to be a good one! :D Thank you to all who sent me cards, gave me presents, or simply sent a well-wishing message. Your love is felt! (:

The next thing I'm looking forward to is Isetan Private Sale on 26th! Needs to stock up on some stuff. And of course the S33 party at Darren's after. And then another party on 27th at Darren's again. Oh well, at least it's themed, so Ima have fun dressing up and camwhoring!

Speaking of which, I have 561 photos on FB! Gosh. :o

2008-12-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

High time for an update!

Met up with the duckpigs (and dianne for like one hour) for the first time since school ended (a darn freaking long time ago) to settle gifts for people. Pretty fruitful trip I must say. And monday night was a major pang seh for me because I was too lazy to drag myself to Daryl's house. Sorry people! >_>

New Year Resolutions 2009
1) Stop being so lazy!
2) Stop pang seh-ing people; tis extremely anti-social behaviour ):
to be continued.

Anyway, so I've started tutoring, and boy, both of my students are so alike! They both just want to keep chatting and chatting and totally lack attention span. At least they concentrate pretty well for like 10 seconds before they drift off to another island. But I think it's really fun, and I suppose I won't mind being a teacher after all :D

Which reminds me once again of how Chang Siang Wen has moved somewhere near me. *shudders*

OK so people, since 2008's ending really soon, do be reminded of the following:
1) Clear all debts because it's bad luck to bring them on to the next year!
2) Thank all the people you need to before you forget and
3) Start thinking about those New Year Resolutions!

I've decided that NYRs are important after all.

OK so NYRs 2009
3) Get started on all those things I was supposed to but still haven't gotten around to doing
4) Achieve maximum level in Pets Society

Can't think of anything else for now! Right, I need to put up at least one proper post before the year's up! Shall do that this weekend. Ciaoz!

2008-12-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

I just had an incredible LOL moment, because I found my secondary one English journal lying in a cupboard. Like, hello, that was 6 years ago! Amazingly, though, I found myself writing the same way I still do today, that is, favouring lots of sentence breaks and using descriptive words usually unacceptable in formal speech. It's quite funny!

And zomg, I started telling white lies from such a young age. Like, I wrote about going to some church celebration when I am pretty sure that at sec one, I was quite the atheist and only started going to church properly (for no more than 2 months, mind you) in sec 2. Yes, I'm quite the atheist again.

So I was rummaging through my cupboard because I was hoping to find out some remnants from primary school as I'm going to start tutoring my neighbour's kid soon. The only problem I have is not knowing what's the maximum I can go since primary was like, ages ago. :( Anyhow, I think it will be quite fun because the kid's cute and he likes my fat rabbits.

I should really start writing down a list of the things I need to do online before I come on next time. I have short term memory lah! OK, whatever, I'm gonna go watch some anime now! :D

2008-12-15T00:28:00.002+08:00

OK, so Jiayi's feeling extremely angry right now so she's trying to count from 1 to 10 to calm herself down. Problem is she's probably counted a hundred times now and it's not exactly working its charms.

How is it supposed to work anyway? Sure, you forget about it as you count, but once you finish counting the anger consumes you once more and you feel like killing every single person in the vicinity. And how are we supposed to force ourselves to start?

/end of rant.

I think Dickens is pretty darn amazing, so far he's the only author who manages to make me feel reaaaally drowsy after reading every couple of pages. Even Shakespeares doesn't have that effect on me!

And...the TV has died on us. Waiting for the new one to come, so we're using this really small one in place of it. Which really sucks! Luckily I'm part of the youtube generation, you kind of get immune to things like lousy quality and dead pixels and all.

Yeah, I'm a dork. :D

2008-12-14T00:12:00.003+08:00

I'm finally going to start baking like I planned to this holidays! Top of my list shall be my all-time favourite : CHIZU KEKI aka cheesecake! <3

Obviously I'm gonna go for a simple recipe, since I'm quite a noob when it comes to baking from scratch. Shall post up photos then (if the cake looks presentable, of course)

But for now I must get started on the christmas cards, like really. Realised there's a whole lot of cards to write. Anyway if you want to hint to me for a christmas card just drop me a tag! This makes things easier for me too if you were secretly not on my list of people to send one to :p

I believe my rilakkuma craze is starting to die down. :( non! I must start loving rilakkuma and korilakkuma and kiiroi tori again! I just wish I could fly to osaka and visit the rilakkuma store.

Mango sale is pretty disappointing this time round. =(

2008-12-11T21:54:00.006+08:00

Trying to act mysterious.

The goldfish here are much larger than those in Singapore! Must be the clean water and fresh air.
I miss my long hair!!! I think it's the longest I've ever let my hair grow, but it was getting a little messy so I went to the hairdresser's and let her cut it anyway she wanted, and it ended up too short for me to get used to immediately. Oh well.

Anyway, so xinrong told me of a new way to help MILK, so now we're setting up a booth on the 20th selling our stuff! :D Hopefully we will at least break even lah hahaha. Anyone interested to join us at the booth? Still looking for more people to share the cost. And our table position's really good, it's like right next to the entrance! Whoopee.

Our quick getaway at Langkawi was really fun! <3>

2008-12-07T21:44:00.004+08:00

Got this in my email from angel liesel, doubt they sent it to the 07 batch since we're not really in the alumni, so I'm putting it up here!

Yay, I feel Christmas in the air! Time to get started on all the cards and all :D And begging for a new phone as a gift. LG ICE CREAM is such love <3 Anyway, I'm feeling really tired right now, after semi-volunteering for MILK (I can't bear to call it volunteering because we were really just forcing people to donate). I wish there was a more fun way to volunteer my services than doing such things as flag days and all, but I suppose this kind of help is more relevant to the organisations.

The past week's basically been a blur for me, I won't be able to remember what I've been doing if not for the photos! Can't believe prom was only 5 days ago! Anyway it's so much fun looking at prom photos on facebook; it's astonishing how some people look so extremely different. I guess makeup really works miracles.

I think I look awful with makeup on though >_> And anyway, being the kind of person who starts getting ready 15 minutes before I have to leave the house, I doubt I will ever use it save for necessary situations.

Class gatherings are finally starting to be planned. Catching up with V11 was great fun, I think we're all so comfortable with one another it feels like a big family. And thank you once again to Nick Lee for hosting!

Can't wait to meet up with S33 (who's planning actually?), 2H and 6-1! I'm so out of touch with planning such stuffs, to think I used to be the one always planning. I swear I'm never doing it again; so much hassle!

camwhoring in vegas

2008-12-03T20:22:00.003+08:00

So prom crashing was ultimately successful, even better than we hoped for! Thank you so much to S35 for lending us the hotel room to while the time away with! :D What was originally supposed to be a short 2-hour stop over became a full-fledged 5 hour camwhoring session (minus the boring bits). But I realise most of the photos are in other people's cameras! :( Hopefully they upload it up sometime soon.

I'm superb-ly proud of myself for surviving in 3-inch heels, seems like I can upgrade to the deadly 4-inch wedges soon.

There were quite a lot of LMAO moments, like how Yanwen and I were so flustered in the lift when it refused to go to the 4th level. It reminded me of this horror movie in which the lift couldn't go to the 4th floor because it was cursed or something. So I was really freaked out. Anyway, I found out later from Yuhan it was simply because there was no fourth floor in that tower. >_>

So I'm feeling a bit emo now cos Stephie's gone and may well never be back again! :( At least she will become my postman in Japan. Imagine all the lovely Rilakkuma stuff I can have! :D:D

My right eyelid's twitching madly. Uh-oh.

2008-12-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

For the past three days, everytime I take a bath, the shampoo's been getting into my left eye. OMG, it's darn annoying. The more careful I am, the more likely the shampoo gets into my eye. It's murphy's law I tell you! :( Luckily my shampoo's quite gentle otherwise I reckon I would have become blind long ago!

Anyway, those of you who told me koizora was good, I want to kill you! Because the plot was shallow, predictable, and the acting was quite terrible. At least it gave us quite a number of good laughs.

And I really want to go to Greece now! Or at least a nice beach getaway. With hot guys. HAHAHA.

2008-11-26T13:37:00.002+08:00

Yay, a new skin I like, finally! And a rilakkuma picture to make it even nicer :D Today has been a pretty good day so far, compared to yesterday which was just downright shitty and ranks rather high in my horrid days list.

I am caught between wanting to pang seh and keeping my promise, but I feel too lazy to drag myself out of the house! And anyway, I'm already late by like, quite a lot. I'm such a horrible person.

And because my life is so boring, I have nothing to blog about. boo.

2008-11-26T01:38:00.001+08:00

I can't remember who's the one who wanted hamsters (my poor, failing memory) so if you read my blog and want a hamster or two give me a holler! Mine are preparing to give birth again soon. :D

2008-11-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

I feel like I'm slowly fading from the world.

Maybe Gossip Girl will bring me back to life.

2008-11-23T18:32:00.002+08:00

Cleaning up the room is such a bore. I spent about 2 hours today but only managed to clear roughly one-third of my things! :( The other two-thirds include all my accumulated notes and I dread starting on it. (To throw, give, or keep?)

I think I'm finally starting to remember how life was like before the A Levels. It feels a bit weird going out to have fun just to find myself a little stoned and unsure of what to do, kind of like I've lost my socializing skills or something. It's like, I don't even want to go shopping!

And maybe I'm being pessimistic here, but I feel like I've already lost a great handful of friends, those nice friendly faces who say hi back to me when I give a little wave or those whom I've known for years but never really got to know. Guess what I can do is just hang on to those remaining ones I still contact and keep them close. Problem is I'm just not as active as I used to be in planning outings and all so all I do now is just lay low and wait for the crowd to come to me. Which is good I guess, but I do feel a little guilty.

And there's so much I want to do, I don't know where to start. It's like, there are so many shows to watch, but I don't which to watch first. The dilemma of having too much time and too many things in my hands. Makes the permutation a bit mind-boggling.

Why do I sound so sad. I should be HAPPY!

2008-11-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

I'm still very high now! I can't believe 12 years of rigid, boring, Singaporean education is over! (Assuming university is vastly different which I believe so)

Even though I had been slacking a lot the past two weeks already, chilling out today still feels the best because there's absolutely no burden at all tugging at the strings of my subconscious mind or any secret stress. I can still feel happy looking at people I dislike :D

So much to anticipate now! Better get down to writing all my list of to-dos down, I'm starting to forget some of them here and there.

2008-11-16T17:50:00.002+08:00

I totally love void deck weddings the day before a paper. Really. <3

But anyway, it's so interesting listening to Sukiyaki and Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin (The moon represents my heart - so mushy!) in a malay accent.

2008-11-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

I still don't really understand why I hate talking on the phone so much. I would try, but I just don't like the feeling and I can't sustain most conversations any longer than 30 minutes. My record should be closer to an hour I suppose. I think it has something to do with not being able to see the person on the other side of the line and feeling horribly exposed, like I'm talking to thin air or something (which it would appear to be like to a caveman with no concept of a phone). Anyhow, I don't like it.

So, I've been adding more and more things to my list of things to do after the A Levels, with various gatherings here and there. Still haven't decided whether to go for the Primary School outing though >_> I'm looking forward most to Christmas though - PRESENTS! xD And Chinese New Year!

Oh, and I finally got an 'A' for the karaokeparty thing! Haha, that is, a score of above 70%. It was some crappy song too, "She Will be Loved" I think. The last time I heard this song was what? Oh, about a month ago on Jian Nan's phone while mugging. If you still haven't tried it you should, it totally releases endorphines and all.

Actually, I think it would be pretty fun to work in the library after the A's. But I'm not sure whether they hire part-timers. I've always wondered where the books go after throwing them into the bookdrop! And it's such brainless work sorting books out in the shelves. Working at the zoo sounds pretty fun too.

Still craving for sushi/sashimi. :(

2008-11-13T17:30:00.002+08:00

After a procrastination of months, I finally went and sent the letter to DBS to get my new ibanking ID and pin. I couldn't stand having to run downstairs to transfer money anymore, so yes, I'm finally doing it! Yay to me.

I think I won't feel very happy on 20th November, because I already feel like the A Levels' over. MCQ papers are damn irritating.

6 down, 6 to go...

2008-11-07T15:31:00.004+08:00

We are finally halfway through the arduous battle with the A Levels! But my most dreaded paper is still yet to come :( Oh my darling Lit, how I yearn to get an A out of you!

Anyway I'm really slow, but Natasha Bedingfield's album "Pocketful of Sunshine" is really good, and totally apt for the trying exam days such as these. And I still really like her voice!

Someone just tell me
That it’s ok now
What are you worried about
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there’s so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy

Happy songs always make my day.

I'm finally starting to feel happier after such a shitty day today, not because of the papers or anything, I think it's like some innate PMS energy within me. Must stop being moody.

And I have yet to declare my joy that Obama triumphed over McSame, although he really has got some big shoes to fill in (not that Bush did a really good job or anything, but you know what I mean).

oh man..how much longer is this going to be? :(

2008-11-04T22:07:00.002+08:00

It's only the second day of the big A's and I'm like, grilled already. Exams are totally more draining than any kind of exercise! No wonder I'm hungry every single minute.

So...GP was wth, nothing that I'm familiar with came up so I wrote about the disadvantaged in Singapore and let my mind trick me into writing quite a bit about homosexuals (thanks to reading yawningbread the day before) and forgetting about the "bomb" word, as Mr Liew would put it.

And Maths was so much better than I expected, but still not very good.

Bio today, and all the different concepts are kind of mixing with one another. I'm starting to think euchromatin was a glycoprotein that undergoes photosynthesis, or something.

OK lah, I'm exaggerating. Jiayou jiayou!

4 more days.

2008-10-30T01:11:00.000+08:00

OMG. (Ok haven't really reached that state yet, but this is 4 days in advance as I am seriously going on a hiatus after this!)

2008-10-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! I'm totally, completely hooked onto this website right now. Ladies and gentlemen, behold the virtual world's very first....online karaoke!

The good news for Karaoke haters who usually hate karaoke ["because it's for cheena people!] is that this website has solely English songs.

So I just registered out of pure curiosity, and I love it already. For one thing, it totally measures your pitching for you, and they have these little bar things to show you how accurate your pitching was. It's damn amusing, watching the bars and feeling super full of yourself when your pitching matches the bar exactly.

The first song I sang was "Because of You", which is totally not my type of song, but it was like, the most popular song or something so I just clicked on it.

Too bad if you don't have a computer mike, you are missing out on all the fun already!

2008-10-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

I'm deriving sick pleasure from rejecting random friend requests. Haha, but I accepted one from a girl I love to hate, I'm even surprised she bothered to add me!

And why is it getting so difficult to find someone's blog on google? It used to be so easy, just type in the name, a bit more information, and voila, you've got it! Either google has deteriorated, or my searching skills have.

Still feeling a bit upset that the school library died on us. :( Hate having to share classrooms with people!

2008-10-15T14:47:00.002+08:00

First time I'm staying at home to study, and as expected I have spent the ealier part of the day doing absolutely nothing. I really have a wonderful ability to appear like I'm doing something really productive, when in actual fact nothing is really being registered in my brain. I always use this to cheat my mom into thinking that I'm studying. :)

Anyway, after reading Daryl's post about isshokenmei (which is totally representative of what's going on for everyone right now), I was struck with realisation that the last time I watched an anime was what, one year ago! ef ~a tale of memories~ So I went to crunchyroll to relive some of those lovely scenes in the anime and found out that there's a second season going on right now! I'm like really really happy and trying to resist watching the first episode.

Another item to add to my list to things to do after the A Levels. Speaking of which, I have decided to scrape the 101 things in 1001 days, because it's a little too short-lived and short term, and am going to do up a list of things to do before i die kind of list.

Randomly, I wish the word "thing" had more synonyms, because then I would not be stuck with using the word everytime I'm stuck and can't seem to find a word to describe that...thing.

And I'm sure I'm not the only one feeling this way, but the exam period always gives me an extreme sense of isolation from everyone, although I'm admittedly intentionally isolating myself from certain people. Even when I'm not studying alone, I can't help but feel distant from even the person sitting right next to me. If this went on any longer than 20th November I swear I would go crazy.

Oh, and I want to read Thomas Friedman's "Hot, Flat and Crowded", mainly because I'm wondering how different it will be from his "The World is Flat". And a gazillion other books as well.

2008-10-10T20:55:00.002+08:00

Is it normal for my mind to be filled with a million distractions and for my mom to think that 3 weeks is a lot of time left to study for the A Levels? Secretly I agree with her - I really don't know what to do with the remaining days because I just can't bring myself to read those horrid notes again, but I feel that I don't know enough to start attempting all those papers! Talk about ambivalence man.

And I want to watch the new Ghibli film! Marj if you're reading this must remember to bring for me OK! And we can sing Baby Don't Cry together. Hahaha.

2008-10-07T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm laughing to myself reading this list of 253 things to do when you're really, REALLY bored in class. I wish I've seen it earlier! Maybe then I would have done some of those things myself.

Some of my favourites:

Stumble into class, slur your words and tell your teacher `I swear to drunk I’m not God ’
Randomly laugh hysterically (although I suspect I may have done this before)
If your teacher walks around the room during the test, cover your test and glare at them suspiciously.
Walk down the aisle and pretend someone tripped you. Glare at that person for the rest of class.
Hold your head and groan, then tell your teacher that your multiple personalities are fighting.

And a new comic I found online! I think the sheep is like, really cute. :D

2008-10-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with Love Psychedelico! <3 Their songs are so uplifting. "oh sing it to me, your song..."

I realise I really like studying in school at night, the atmosphere is just so peaceful and unassuming, and it's the only time I can listen to my playlist without changing the songs or anything, because I'm just in this totally zen and absorbent state of mind.

The school does look a bit like a haunted house at night though. VJ's so environmentally friendly that they leave half the lights off. And then there's the random lizards, insects and the rat we saw today.

GP Mock exam today was full of bullshit, just kept going on and on with my moral argument on why the more educated can never satisfied with their growing greed in the capitalist society. Even managed to throw in the Wall Street example to prove my point on greed. Totally expecting a horrid grade. Kept thinking I was writing a Lit essay! Hahaha.

And you know what? I can't believe this, but I'm actually starting to feel like, excited, about the A Levels! There's this conflicting feeling of wanting it to come as soon as possible, but not feeling prepared for it.

Anyway, was just checking out this horoscope page, and was totally amazed when it wrote that Cancer's lucky numbers are 3 and 7, which are totally my lucky numbers! Wonderful. And supposedly the body parts ruled by Cancer are the breasts and stomach. Hmmm.

Isn't it interesting how horoscopes are written? I would love such a job, you know. Writing total nonsense and still getting paid for it. Imagine the fun I would derive doing it! "On Wednesday, you will go through a life changing experience as you suddenly come to terms with your sexuality and decide you are gay/lesbian, and confess your true feelings to your best friend." I mean, I'm sure the truly faithful will actually hang on to every single word and try to make life go according to the predictions.

(Am a little embarrassed by how I used to follow the horoscope and exclaim with wonder when something remotely similar to what is written happens to me. LOL.)

But then I guess the horoscope does give people a little hope in their lives when they read something optimistic, no?

I always have trouble thinking about how to end blog posts.

2008-10-05T22:46:00.001+08:00

Positive thinking, positive thinking. I think I'm starting to become more and more pessimistic about life, which totally just ain't my thing!

Maybe solitude is what I need.

Farewell Assembly

2008-10-04T21:10:00.004+08:00

Thank you VJC for all the memories: good and bad, happy and sad, and all that jazz. I must say that this school has really given me a lot, and I hope to say that I have given just as much to the school. And nope, I didn't cry, Jiayi's no longer a crybaby! :)

We spent so much time camwhoring together as a class that I didn't have time to go around school to take pictures with everyone I wanted to, but it's okay, because I took the photo that I wanted the most! :D [I owe you one Nick!] And anyway there are still a lot of opportunities to take photos lah.

Hmmm, don't really know what to say, but I think these past two years in the mainstream kind of made me dislike the school system a lot, with so many sucky teachers and bitchy batchmates, but then it's people like them who make school life more fun because then I can bitch about them! :D

So, yes, thank you to all the following: V11, S33, dunman friends, the 24ths, college maggers, avalon!, eye candies, frenemies, for making JC life memorable for me!

I think I will miss the canteen food, daydreaming during lectures, irritating people during lectures, taugay from the Chinese food stall and noodle stall, mr liew's bad pronunciation and cpm's lousy speeches the most. Haha, no lah, I'm kidding, obviously I'll miss the people the most! Oh, and mass dance!

Aiyah, was supposed to make this like, tearjerking or something. PHAIL man.

2008-10-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

I feel so alienated from the virtual world. I only just found out about the new Singaporean sex scandal involving this apparently rather fat guy and not-so-pretty girl called Sun Tan (what kind of name is that anyway?). Seriously, when will people learn that the internet is NEVER going to be private?

2 more days to the end of official lessons. :)/:(?

2008-09-30T23:44:00.003+08:00

I'm really really happy today because I wore my lovely tinkerbell earrings for the first time after having lost them for months, when I finally found them yesterday at a certain dusty corner! I thought it was gone for good, so I was really glad to have them back.

And SUSHI makes me happyyyy. :D So does looking at nice photos of cute people. HAHAHA.

What a change from yesterday, which was the ultimate low of my post-prelims phase. Lit was such a disappointment, although I didn't expect much considering how I neglected revising it, but a D is really sad. Duchess of Malfi, I'm so gonna screw you upside down! GRRR XD

Anyway, it's really funny, because this morning I was still proclaiming how I wasn't scared of the newcomer to VJ, the poor injured white cat, in front of the s33-ers, but just now while walking to the bus stop, I was seriously freaked out when the white cat kept following us!

I swear it has a human face. Why doesn't anyone besides Yuhan and I see it?!?

I've decided that one day, I will have a pet cat. I kind of like them, and I like the idea that they are really hygienic animals. The only thing I can't stand about my rabbits is that they shit all over the place. Oh, and that they are so inconspicuous I always trip over them or step on their leg or something.

Anyway, Happy Children's Day to the young at heart! That includes me, of course :D

2008-09-25T22:38:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I went home, took a nap, and woke up so late I couldn't make it for the sale! :( OMG.

Today was one of those days when I was extremely mood-swingy, very high one minute, and very PMS-y the next. So yep, I'm feeling rather bitchy now. But I guess I shouldn't say too much, just that I'm really amazed by how some people just totally have no clue at all.

So I was happy because I totally passed my chem prelim, and it wasn't even an E! I was super shocked by my MCQ, like 32/40? I kept laughing to myself, seriously. So yes, I'm super proud of myself! :D But of course there's no time to be overimpressed with my not-so-superb-after-all achievements, and try to jump enough grades for an A.

Time to return to my book now. At a very exciting part of story now!

2008-09-24T23:46:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD!
Teo Heng twice in three days, I'm a happy girl! Haha. For the unknowing, Teo Heng is this cheap-to-the-max karaoke place in Katong. To prove my point, the first trip for 6 hours cost me $6 and the second for 3 hours cost me $1.70. Like, WTH?

Anyway today's session wasn't very high for me, since Pingyen was like 1000 times higher, the highest I've ever seen him at, so I think I was a bit shocked. Anyway, it was fun, and good food! Katong Laksa is yummy and so is the Coffee ___ place we went to for dinner.

Got back two papers today, and hounded Mr Lam for my math results (must get one mark for grade jump)! Managed to keep to my goal so far, but chem is really worrying. Oh well, shall stop thinking about it!

OMG, just remembered that it's Isetan sale tomorrow and I kind of promised myself to start studying tomorrow. Shiatz.

2008-09-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

Recently I have been really hooked onto Haruki Murakami's "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle". I bought the book really long ago, but its length kind of turned me off. How I regret not reading it earlier! It's such awesomeness, and I'm not even halfway through it yet.

I think it's been quite a long time since a book has managed to make me feel nervy about lying on my bed at night, wondering if there are supernatural beings about. In fact, the last time I remember that was when I watched "The Ring" and I kept thinking Sadako will come catch me in my sleep or something. It's such an awful feeling, wanting to sleep, but fearing it. This time, I kept thinking about the novel's description of a character being skinned alive, and another being trapped in a well for three days.

And it got me started thinking about death, a topic I consider really taboo since the prospect of dying really scares me. But anyway, I'm not going to discuss that here, it's too dark for a blog! But really, it's just silly to pretend that death's not going to befall on every single one of us someday - it's just a matter of when.

Only one full day left before the return to school, and the dreaded feedback for the exam scripts! :( Not really hoping for much, just to pass everything without any E's. So anyway, I hope everyone's been unwinding themselves this long weekend and not burying themselves in the books immediately! You don't want to burn yourselves up :)