Another bad day today. Irritated over various, diverse things and reasons.

Came home and found out that the two hormone-charged male hamsters have been given away. Ah. Too many hamsters dilute my love for them, anyway.
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I have always been fascinated by the art of socialising. There are just so many different ways people interact with one another, and I like to study how effective they are.

Today, I randomly asked some people how many people they talk to everday on average. The answers ranged from as little as 5 to 30. Interesting isn't it? But then it's quite a misleading question because it's not easy to define what talking means. Mostly you just say hi and bye to people you pass by anyway.

And it's really fun to observe what people say when they first see a friend. Some people do the whole suanning thing like "oh no it's so sueh that I had to meet you here, I'm going to have bad luck the whole day!", others do the hug and extremely-happy-to-see-you "Oh my god hello (insert name)!" thing. I think I'm kind of in the middle. Or when I can't be bothered it's just a wave. Hahaha.

Valentine's Day will be another good opportunity for me to observe further :p I am really torn by the whole idea of V-day, firstly because I really love receiving all the presents/chocolates/flowers, but the whole idea of it is just an extremely blown-up by the media stint to roll in the cash for business people. And of course the euphemism of Friendship Day for those who are not attached to comfort themselves that friends are really all they need. For goodness sake if you are really that assured you won't give a damn what 14th Feb is called.

I think literature is making me more of a skeptic than I ought to be. :( I am growing increasingly pessimistic! (I can't believe I was talking to Gwen about how life was pointless and we should all just live life blankly and die at the end!!! Emo's getting into my head) Someone give me a sunflower and make me hallucinate that the world's full of happiness and love everywhere!

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The sporadic number of posts in this blog seems to reflect quite well my indecisive, fickle-minded character. Ended up deleting all previous posts to start on a clean slate, once again.

Am quite burdened by the fact of the realisation of just how much I have changed during the past year or so I have stopped blogging. Undoubtedly, there are some positive changes, but mostly it tends towards rather negative changes. I can't seem to point a finger to exactly how I am different, though. Perhaps it's all an illusion, or maybe it's the little devils in my head playing tricks on me? :D

Somehow, every time I set out to write an emo-splashed post, the tone miraculously turns optimistic. It happens every time I write a letter too! I don't know why, but I think my writing style and diction is extremely limited to like, sweet and lovely things. Like Rilakkuma. HAHAHA.

I guess that's one thing that hasn't changed over the year -> My obsession passion for Rilakkuma. And Otsuka Ai! She never fails to amaze me with her crazy antics. Perhaps I see myself in her. Am irritated with blogger because it fails to accept my blogskin. :( Hmmph.

It's Rong the Bong's birthday tomorrow. :D Happy Birthday to you if I remember to tell you about my new blog!!

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