Wild Sheep Chase

Tuesday 29 April 2008

My darling Yuhan who dumb-dumbly injured her back doing shuttle run and had to be rushed off to Alexandra Hospital. -_- I insist it's a bimbo moment on your part. Nevertheless, get well soon, and yay that you won't be missing investiture! LOVE YOU! <3

And so...Investiture is officially only 8 hours away! I feel sad thinking that I will no longer be able to wear my lovely black tag anymore, but really glad that saigang days are officially over. Helping/nannying the juniors just now was horrible, and I sincerely do not wish to relive that again.

But anyway, I think it's really exciting, and I can't wait to see all the presents everyone made for everyone else! (Whilst ignoring the fact that Lit Essays' due tomorrow, and bio due today still undone :( Wake up, jiayi!)

And didn't see Hanoi today. ):

E-assessment time again! I am going to get my 15/15 this time! GRR.

♥ 23:28

Sunday 27 April 2008

Chicken rice is such sinful goodness.

Am rapidly trying to recall what I'm supposed to be blogging about. HMM.

OK, so I was supposed to help Chengyi upload her nice chemistry test tube photo, so here you go chengz:

It's obviously so nice cos I was the one who took the photo :D

And then I realised I have this really nice photo of Stephie and I (spoilt by Shane), so I must put it up and then force Stephie to tag on my blog! :D I love you, Stephie, for being so acceptive of my random highness and actually responding to it. Screams _ _ _ _ _'s name xD

And the really nice clay thing the Duckpigs made for Anthea! I think it's really very good for clay first-timers like us! (Theoretically this is my second time using clay lah, but the first time doesn't count because jove and i were making lousy swimming suits for our seniors) I think I have secret talent in clay-art. (Lijie, if you're reading this, send me the photos soon!

So last night, our council singing session finally materialised, although there were only 4 of us. It was only then that I realised that I've been having my cough/sore throat for almost a month! OMG. It's really because I haven't been doing anything about it, and still continuing to eat all those "heaty" food even though I really shouldn't be. But anyway, it was fun last night (especially with my camera's self timer), but we had to leave quite abruptly to catch the last train.

And then I had one of my coincidental music moments, when I stepped into the train, plugged into my (dying) ipod, clicked shuffle, and voila! "Last Train" started playing. How awesomely good timing!

I want to jump onto the Last Train of the day,

My feelings can't wait 'til tomorrow.
I want to see you right now.

I don't want to lose this feeling.

As I ride the Last Train, I look out the window.

I see your words flying with the stars.
I want to see you so badly,

So I'll keep riding this train until I do.

So sweet lah! Even though I was obviously not thinking about that as I boarded the last train lah. I was really just thinking about how I wanted to get home and sleep on my welcoming bed.

Supposed to go for a wedding dinner later today, but don't really feel like going, since I don't really know the newlyweds. Should really stay to do my homework, since I have proven that my optimum homework time is really 7-1opm, Sunday. Hopefully I will be able to finish my two lit essays during that time.

OMG. I forgot about the existence of chem e-assessment! Shit! Better go start now.

♥ 14:29

Tuesday 22 April 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHEA (DOROTHY) CHUA! <3 You're much loved by Duckpigs, and S33! :D Look forward to your lovely present later in school today!
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I went for the farewell party absolutely confident that I will not end up in tears, but left otherwise. It's kind of strange how affairs of the heart works, although I have to admit that tears shed were not purely due to emotional attachments to the council. As the title of the post suggests, it was really some kind of catharsis, leaving me rather drained thereafter.

The day started off quite badly. I have this strange habit of listening to the horoscope every morning, and for some weird reason I was feeling rather irritated by the fact that today was a "three-star day" - one of those not here not there kind of day. And then halfway through the journey to school, it started pouring really heavily. It was nice watching the rain fall, and I was totally daydreaming when there was this loud thud on my left and turns out that we just go into a car crash.

Didn't help much that the other driver was some bitchy woman who kept trying to push the blame to us, and my dad being the calmer and zen one just took down the car plate number and drove off.

Things picked up from there, other than the trivial bouts of insecurities I've been experiencing lately. Chem practical was particularly uplifting - the colourful chemicals brightened up my mood, like the rainbow-coloured Paddle Pop ice cream did!

And then I started feeling sick and my mood went down again. On a side note, I think my immune system is on strike, especially since I have been falling sick so often nowadays. :(

Pseudo-studying after school with wuyue and jove was lots of fun though, we ended up talking about eye (guy) candies and blog shops instead. I did manage to do my stats 2 tutorial, which will make mr lam very happy again! :D

And then it was the farewell party which was 1) creepy, 2) entertaining and 3) freaking emo. There were like slideshows with photos and affirmations, and somehow the nerds day photo with me and Darren appeared. >_>

The roses were nice, as were the scented tea-lights. The 25ths are so thoughtful, it makes me feel guilty not having done it for the 23rds.

The real creepy part was how everyone just suddenly went around hugging and crying and stuff, and it wasn't even investiture! Imagine how it would be like on the actual passing down day! Then stupid darren had to remind me that it's really our last year in VJ, and it forced me to think back on the extremely long four years I've spent here.

And OMG, I felt super emo. I really have such mixed emotions for VJ that I love it so much sometimes, and really hate it other times. It's a place I've met and lost many important people in my life, and experienced things I've never experienced before. But there are also many regrets I have which made me feel really melancholic. Which, I guess, kind of explains the tears.

Reached home and instantly felt super happy because there was a surprise letter from my penpal, and donuts waiting for me. :D

I really hate emotional see-saws.

♥ 23:54

Wednesday 16 April 2008

I think I'm starting to evolve into some kind of strange, loserish loner.

Rather than hang out with actual people, I have started forming a habit of going on dates with just myself. I used to do this occasionally, like once every few months, but I've already done so about 3 times this month already! I still haven't tried the groundbreaking "watching a movie on your own" thing though. This is, however, mostly credited to lack of money to waste on bad movies.

I think I'm increasingly addicted to the idea of freedom and liberation, or rather, the delusion of freedom and liberation.

I'm really saying all these because I just did the weirdest thing ever ten minutes ago. In the fit of the moment (due to frustration with lack of competency of laptop), I felt like I needed to get out of the house, and decided to go for a walk. The strange thing is that I found myself heading to the storeroom, digging out my rusty guitar, slung it over my shoulder and walked out of the house. (At this point of time, the rest of the family was fast asleep which is why nobody sane was present to stop me)

And then I went to the little park I used to hang out at with Elena, my primary school best friend, all the time. Maybe I was feeling a little nostalgic? And in case you were wondering, I did end up strumming a few chords on my guitar, but stopped after I realised it was seriously out of tune. Feeling quite pleased with myself, I came back home and here I am.

Wasn't that the strangest revelation ever? I fear a certain Mr Hyde is slowly appearing in me. (On that line of thought, Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde is seriously one of the best horror novels I've ever read - or maybe that's only because I'm into personas and all)

And I find myself having weird thoughts like wanting to sit alone during lectures sometimes. Brr. I'm seriously turning into some kind of anti-social monster. :(

Digressing to the topic of sex education, I hope Kam Fatt starts telling more about his erm, personal experiences soon! It will all be very exciting to know. Seriously, the funniest thing that happened today was when he thought Eirene and Aaron were dating, and also when he tried wheedling out who in our class had sex before. I wish someone had the guts to pretend s/he had done it before, his reaction would have been a classic one for lynn to imitate.

Anyhow, sex education is making me feel inhibited, because I realise 90% of the class probably has a different view from me. Byproduct of Language Arts education from Mr Koh, hurhur.

♥ 23:36

Friday 11 April 2008

My love for Ken'ichi was completely revived upon watching Death Note again, and then seeing these uploaded up by a very nice fan.

This is my absolute favourite among all of them - L washing all his white shirts. It's so funny imagining someone as clever as him doing that!

PW results was released today, in a rather low-key manner. I kind of expected everyone to be gathered in the hall or something, but for us it was done at the scrabble board in a pretty slip shod manner. Anyhow, I got my A, so I'm not complaining. Yay for me! :D

My sister's 21st birthday is officially one week away, but I have absolutely no ideas what to get for her! >_< Thought of just getting make-up, but that's kind of boring. And I still owe Margaret a present :(

Is it very mysterious that people like songs in languages we don't fully understand? I think I can never give a complete explanation about my love for Jap songs, but I think it's something about the language that I find so much more intriguing than English, which I honestly find rather dull. I like languages that have lots of hidden meaning in them, and which I can have fun with changing sentence structures and all, and English just doesn't offer that for me. It's so rigid.

I like the uncertainty and mystery of Japanese. Even when written you can never know what is the real interpretation, which explains why translation is so difficult.

Chinese is a wonderful language too, but sad to say, my love for Mandopop is gradually dying. Tunes are overly recycled over and over again, and they don't really interest me anymore.

On a highly different note, I think I need to start being more opinionated, and stop being too diplomatic. I'm bored of being nice-y to everyone. My first step towards achieving this shall be to speak up on irritating behaviour, which I believe will be quite frequent. xD

♥ 23:13

Wednesday 9 April 2008

I loved yesterday is officially out, and it's the only reason I'm not sleeping yet although I'm super, super tired now. YUI POWER!

You know how sometimes you put in so much effort not to let your mood affect the people around you, so when you get home, all you want to do is wind down and not think about anything, but it really bugs me that my sister can't seem to appreciate that and finds it necessary to make sure I can't enjoy that little freedom. Right now plugging into happy music is good enough therapy, but I think one day even that won't be enough. Sucks not to have my own room.

This week hasn't been fabulous for me, and I sure am hoping the next will be a better one. Pray for me will ya. And DIANNE, let's got to church this weekend. I need some faith in me life!

Today's massdebate (read as massderbate) with S43 was...interesting. That class has interesting characters like that Wenjun guy who's an absolute beng, and Dianne Wong the one who throws an absolutely bitchy look when she debates. Of course I enjoyed myself sitting within my little comfort zone, not really listening to everything. Maybe I should start working harder for GP - who knows, I might become first in standard next! HAHAHA. That thought cracks me up.

And I think the reason why I'm so sick these days might be due to my lenses. Better go get them checked some time soon. xD

Just for some laughs:
A preacher was standing at the pulpit giving his Sunday sermon when a note was passed to him. The only word written on the sheet was IDIOT. Looking up at the congregation, the preacher smiled and said: I have heard of men who write letters and forget to sign their names but this is the first time I see a man sign his name and forget to write the letters.

LOL.

♥ 22:38

Thursday 3 April 2008

My mum says if I don't do well for A Levels, she doesn't want to send me to university and I will have to go to work instead.

Honestly, I'm quite OK with the whole not going to uni thing (YAY for no more studying), but the main crux of the issue is that she's only saying that because she thinks it will be a waste of money if I go to university and end up staying at home to take care of my children when I get married in the future.

I was like, secretly cursing in my head.

Firstly, I don't even know if I want to get married at all, secondly, she's deciding my future for me, and most importantly, what's with the whole housewife thing? OMG, even though I have secret desires to be a tai-tai, I'm not going to stay at home just because my husband tells me to. This is just evoking all my feminist thoughts again, and I'm not feeling like being very revolutionary these days.

Anyhow, am not willing to think too much about this, and am just praying I will feel like studying again. Can't remember what it used to be like feeling passionate about school.

April Fool's came and went, had a few laughs here and there, but our LT joke failed because Mr Chok suddenly flared up. I think rongz and I were the most peeved about it, or at least that what it seemed like the way we kept going on about it. But it would have been fun to see how, for once, Victorians will cooperate! Especially since there are particular classes in the lecture group who don't take too well to our attention grabbing antics. Ahem.

JTS today, which I ended up not going for. Ah well, no loss on both parties, as mel said. Only no free food (and it's fish and co!).

Sister coming home from Vietnam coming Sunday. Wonders what she bought for me! :D And apparently she bought exotic wines with like, a snake inside. I am so not going to drink that. Just hope she wraps it up properly so the snake doesn't like start crawling around the luggage or something. *shudders at thought*

Not many more days to "I loved yesterday" now! Whoopee!

♥ 22:33