I think I'm starting to evolve into some kind of strange, loserish loner.
Rather than hang out with actual people, I have started forming a habit of going on dates with just myself. I used to do this occasionally, like once every few months, but I've already done so about 3 times this month already! I still haven't tried the groundbreaking "watching a movie on your own" thing though. This is, however, mostly credited to lack of money to waste on bad movies.
I think I'm increasingly addicted to the idea of freedom and liberation, or rather, the delusion of freedom and liberation.
I'm really saying all these because I just did the weirdest thing ever ten minutes ago. In the fit of the moment (due to frustration with lack of competency of laptop), I felt like I needed to get out of the house, and decided to go for a walk. The strange thing is that I found myself heading to the storeroom, digging out my rusty guitar, slung it over my shoulder and walked out of the house. (At this point of time, the rest of the family was fast asleep which is why nobody sane was present to stop me)
And then I went to the little park I used to hang out at with Elena, my primary school best friend, all the time. Maybe I was feeling a little nostalgic? And in case you were wondering, I did end up strumming a few chords on my guitar, but stopped after I realised it was seriously out of tune. Feeling quite pleased with myself, I came back home and here I am.
Wasn't that the strangest revelation ever? I fear a certain Mr Hyde is slowly appearing in me. (On that line of thought, Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde is seriously one of the best horror novels I've ever read - or maybe that's only because I'm into personas and all)
And I find myself having weird thoughts like wanting to sit alone during lectures sometimes. Brr. I'm seriously turning into some kind of anti-social monster. :(
Digressing to the topic of sex education, I hope Kam Fatt starts telling more about his erm, personal experiences soon! It will all be very exciting to know. Seriously, the funniest thing that happened today was when he thought Eirene and Aaron were dating, and also when he tried wheedling out who in our class had sex before. I wish someone had the guts to pretend s/he had done it before, his reaction would have been a classic one for lynn to imitate.
Anyhow, sex education is making me feel inhibited, because I realise 90% of the class probably has a different view from me. Byproduct of Language Arts education from Mr Koh, hurhur.
