Cleaning up the room is such a bore. I spent about 2 hours today but only managed to clear roughly one-third of my things! :( The other two-thirds include all my accumulated notes and I dread starting on it. (To throw, give, or keep?)

I think I'm finally starting to remember how life was like before the A Levels. It feels a bit weird going out to have fun just to find myself a little stoned and unsure of what to do, kind of like I've lost my socializing skills or something. It's like, I don't even want to go shopping!

And maybe I'm being pessimistic here, but I feel like I've already lost a great handful of friends, those nice friendly faces who say hi back to me when I give a little wave or those whom I've known for years but never really got to know. Guess what I can do is just hang on to those remaining ones I still contact and keep them close. Problem is I'm just not as active as I used to be in planning outings and all so all I do now is just lay low and wait for the crowd to come to me. Which is good I guess, but I do feel a little guilty.

And there's so much I want to do, I don't know where to start. It's like, there are so many shows to watch, but I don't which to watch first. The dilemma of having too much time and too many things in my hands. Makes the permutation a bit mind-boggling.

Why do I sound so sad. I should be HAPPY!

♥ 18:32